Ok. This is it. Its the end. Never again.

I found a roomate. Packed as much as I could and left.  I left the apartment that was too expensive to live in, with remnince of broken beer bottles and evidence of a complete melt down.  Not by me, but by the man who I keep giving chance after chance to get his shit together.  4 years on and off is more than enough time.  I am not going to let this experience jade me into stating that no one changes, because I dont believe that is true.  I have seen change in myself and others.  So, what I will say is that this person, if he will ever change, is not going to change in the time that I need to feel like I am in a relationship that I deserve to be in.  I can beat myself up, feel sorry for myself, go into a depression, etc...or I can choose to move on completely.  Move on from that relationship, that mind set, that place he put me with dominance and words.  Now, in the new house, I am with a single mom of 2, who herself struggles with controlling her children.  There is a lot of yelling and banter.  Which, is what I was trying to get away from.  Hopefully that will get better....we all have our issues.  I am safe and in a place to focus on myself and getting my daughter and I set up for success.  This is temporary, as are the feelings that I have as a result of this situation.  I will continue to move on and  pray and get myself as strong as possible.